She's lost control again.
She's lost control.

My leg really hurts.
fxck yeah butterfly stitches.

I'm never drinking like that ever again. And the worst is I can't apologise enough.














Major.
Hangover.
Kills.




Don't drink kids.

"Can I make it better with the lights turned on.."

GO SLOW

I had a lovely day today.

I went for a picnic by the river with Billy and Petch.

It gave us a little taster of what Reading will be like, except at Reading we're be sitting around a fire, listening to live music, highly intoxicated and with about ten more people. So fuck yeah. Sounds goodgoodgood.



Andd, now I feel like complete shit. I should have went to be at twelve last night instead of half five this morning. And I should have slept past half nine.

And I shouldn't have shared a bed with Bill, not when she has a cold, because now I do.

And maybe not drunk as much as I did.
I take that back. I should have just drunk more. I wanted to be numb.





So I'm going to sit here and be bored now.
Safesafesafe.

I've been working on white lies..

I'm in love with The XX.
They're amazing.
And I hope the Reading site wasn't lying about them playing this year.
'Cause I'll be so disappointed. :(

I'm so cold it's unreal. I think I need loads of cuddles.



I can't be bothered to blog tonight.
Tomorrow maybe.




So I'll tell the truth, I'll give it up to you..


xxxx

I pray that something picks me up,

Uhm, I'm starting my diet today. For the fifhthueioqhjthteenth time.
I think coffee will be my food replacement for now. :))

I'm so excited for Reading. I think it's going to be mentioned in every blog from now.
OH. And Emarosa in like 39 days. :D
It's going to be sooo good.

I like the way things are at the moment.
Little things are upsetting, annoying, stupid.
But, they'll pass and change and get better and worse.

My hair's not red.
Well, bit's of red show, but that's expected, seeing as red's one of the hardest colours to remove. ¬¬
I always hate my hair after I've dyed it. For example, this new colour I hate. It's too dark in general and too dark for my skin tone. I either look extremely foreign or a goth. I can't wait for it to wash out and go back to my natural colour.
^Typical girly rant over.

I'm getting the underground today. I love it.
:)

I like these.

Okay. Bye now.

And set's me down in your warm arms.

I think what I didn't want, I may want now.
It's really weird and I don't really like the feeling.
It makes me uncomfortable.

Also, I think I need to change a lot of things about myself in order for me to like myself.
It's not a 'think' thing. I know that's what you need to do. I just need to find the will-power to do so.

Lackluster.

CuffleyCamp was okay.

I mean it got me out and helping.

And I met Adam.

Oh god.

I have no idea why I'm like in love with him.

It's really weird.

Billy should be getting here soon.

-pushes you to get motivated-

And we're gonna' have awesome time.

This word leaves my lips so easily now.

Reading's exciting, huh? :))

xx

It's alright to tell me, what you think about me..

I'm quite looking forward to this volunteer thing in Cuffley tomorrow.
I like to know that I can still somehow help out.
And meeting new people should be fun.

I'm so cold!
Urgh. :(


I could do with a hug.
And a good night's sleep.



I won't try to argue, or hold it against you..

Nicest thing.

I want loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads of these please.

WORDS ARE CHEAP..

I really shouldn't be awake at five in the morning.
I should stop with the coffee.

I can't put it into words because it doesn't sound correct.
I can't string a sentence together that makes sense.
I'll try and type it child-friendly.
I'm going to do differently now.

^Yeah 'cause that make sense.
I know what I mean, and you'll see what I mean soon.

Yeahokay.

I'll try and sleep now x


So I'll sell you a line..

WHO LET THE DOGS OUT?

Yeah, this songs been stuck in my head all day.


I know nearly every bloody teenager in Great Britain is saying the same thing, but I really, REALLY need a job.
It's almost stupid how desparate I am.

GET OUT.

I really can't wait to get my camera.

ohmygad.

I need to leave now.

The view is beautiful and ours alone tonight.

The Cure are like amamamamamamamayzen.
They managed to keep my mind off my belly ache for about an hour too.
(Y)
Along with tumblr.




Youuu should listen to this.
It's actually really good.



My brain's buzzing. I have no idea as to how I'm going to sleep tonight.
I've over thought everything I've been thinking.
I need to shut down.

JUST FOLLOW YOUR EYES

I really want to kiss a boy that looks like a girl.
That's not weird right.

kaythanks.

RELAPSE

Well, it was bound to happen eventually. And it felt fucking good.


I remember the last time I tried coffee, it took me days to get the taste off of my tongue.
I really didn't think I'd be sitting here with a cup.
I needed a new obsession.







I think I need to apologise to James for laughing at him crying at Little Miss Sunshine.
I get it now.

His love is dirtier than you think.

It's okay to change lyrics if you want.
I can.



I fucking can't wait to dye my hair back brown. I hate this.
URGHURGHURGH.