I'll never let the two of us be friends..

Tonight's going to be so long.
Eurgh.


I'm losing touch with everyone.
Nice.






Does that hurt?

SHOUT AT ME.

http://www.formspring.me/shaunieeee

Lover please, do not, fall to your knee's..

Oh okay, remember it this time?
I really think we should sit down and talk for hours.
Like tomorrow or something.
Fuck.


My back feels like it's about to break and my belly feels as though it's about to rip open.
I really hate the kind of pain you can do nothing about.
Seeing as I can't swallow those godforsaken-pain-removing-tablets.
:'/

Wanna' hear something exciting? Amazing perhaps?
I GOT A READING TICKET.
Fuuuuuuu-
That's just made summer even more gorgeous.
And even more far away.

Butttt, in the mean time, I have Emarosa to look forward to. And Southend with this lot. And the touring England. And whatever else happens to jump in my path.
:)


I have no clue as to where my mood is leading me.
Haha.
I don't know whether to just enjoy this, or just let the one thing that has managed to piss me off completely, kill my buzz.
I'll take a bet on the first one.
:))

G'night loverss x

It's not, like I believe in ever-lasting love.

Lust is a mother fucker.

THAT THROWS ME TO THE GROUND.

I really wish today was a nice day.
Nnnn.

I guess she can keep me content for now.

oh.

along with the terribly painful wait for Reading tickets.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease.

please.

I have to go get ready now.

loveee.

old time grudges will die so slowly

i love being in a crap mood.
i love thinking things will only get crappier.
love it.



and these random, quick crying sessions are bullshit.
i want to eat cakes,drink southerncomfo,smoke loads,dance stupidly,cuddle,laugh a hell of a lot at stupid things,smile sillyly,take the piss out of everyone,get angry all over again,sit in a park til 4 in the morning,take loadsssss of pictures with a camera i do not have,tell him how much i can't stand him lately+how he's just suddenly pissed me off.
scream my fucking opinions at everyone.

i'm really not looking forward to anything this week.





i know you miss the way i saw you..

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine.

I keep my eyes wide open all the time.

Screaming, I'll tear out, I'll tear out, I'll tear out your hearttttt..

I was grinning stupidly along to this song.








I think I'm going to use it as my ringtone. Again. For like another four months.

Good timesssssssss.




And that's it.
lovelovelove.





I promise to leave my weapons left by the bedside.

You're the star,

And I am the blackened sky..

Petch is in the shower. She's naked.
:D

I have the fattest hangover you could ever imagine.
Well, had I guess. It's drifting away now. Thank God.
I really wish I can remember more of last night. Just for the sake of remembering it.
And I also wish I hadn't spuked a hell of a lot and then fell asleep.
They're what make the memories I guess eh?

Fuckfuckfuck.
You promised. You really did.


Oh lawd. He's nommmyyy.
This is good. Really good.
+
I'm happy. I really am.
And I'm enjoying every second of it :)

One thing's just bugging me at 'te mo.
One. Thing.
I guess, you're in the same boat though right?
You can't really be mad. Or have a loud opinion on this.
I just wish I could take it all backkkk.
Right back.

Keep them coming.

But it was not your fault but mine..

And it was your heart on the line,

I enjoyed my birthday more than what I thought I would. The surprise party, which I thought I would despise with a passion, wasn't all that bad.

I love how when you've been drinking you try and give the best advice possible and think you can solve any problem and fix any argument. Turns out, you can't. >.<

Luke's puke on his trousers and shoes was so funny.

"Luke's been sick. Help him."

"huh"

-points towards garden-

"hey uhm Luke, you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine." -grins-

"Are you sure? You don't look fine.."

"Shaunie, I'm goo-"

-THROWS UP SOME MORE.-

Yeah. Completely okay ¬¬

xD

I think the best part was waking up the next morning, drinking more, and feeling more drunk than you did the night before.

The bruises I have are so ugly. And so painful.

:(

Thanks to the doings of James, Luke and Mr. Escalator.

And some I can't quite figure how they got there.

On a different note:

I watched Forrest Gump for the first time last night. I have to buy it.

It's a loovely day today :D

The sun puts everyone in a better mood me thikns.

OH WOW. :D

Me and Eddie are gonna' make pancakes for breakfast now.

Nom.

Have a nice day coolkids.

I really fucked it up this time,

Didn't I my dear..

xxxx

Thank you.

I now understand what I complete slut I can be.














I'll blog about my birthday when I'm in a better mood.

What happens when you fall in love?

You believe in that?
It's love, it's not Santa Claus.


I just finished watching 500 Days Of Summer and cried. Again.
It has to be one of my favourite's now.
My golly.


So, hopefully I'll be working in a theatre soon. It sounds like a load of fun, and the pays pretty awesome. I just really hope I get it.

I. Actually. Hate. Periods.
BlehblehblehblehBLEH.

I'm looking forward to the weekend quite a bit =)
I'm just praying my stomach cramps don't ruin it.
Boys have no idea.

I thought I'd post before I went to sleep.

This is it.

G'night lovely's.

♥

Don't feed me violins..

I got a few nice bits today. I forgot how expensive clothes are.
I got a vintage dress, high waisted shorts and two t-shirts. Plus a holiday. So I'm pretty happy.

I really want to go to Rome. Or Venice. Or Paris.
Fiji's out the window. £2k for a ticket. Nice.
New Zealand's still an option; it's chances are unbelievably low, but it's still up there. Thankfully.

I can't wait to be home already! And I have no obvious reason as to why.
I want Eddie's gig to be tonight. Or my alcohol fuelled night to be tonight. I want to be with my bloody friends.

I've been feeling sick since I woke up.
And the feeling just came back.
Oh wow.

Just run with me through roads of speeding cars.

You know that I could use somebody..

Last night was so cool like. And that be the cake I made Eddie. Now you get what I mean by it not turning out quite the way I wanted it to. Eddie seemed to like it, and that was all I really wanted. Oh, also, didn't taste as good as I'd hoped it to! But again, everyone ate it, out of politeness I think, but still, they ate it.

The random gig we ended up at was pretty cool too. I thought it'd be a bit boring, but it wasn't. Petch and me got Eddie up dancing, then Billy, James and Kieran joined in with the fun. So all in all, that was a good highlight of the night. OH. And their cover songs were pretty good too. A bit wedding singer like, or in the words of the boys 'a run down band trying to reclaim their youth', but they were enjoyable and kept us happy :D. And kept us screaming Kings Of Leon lyrics at eachother. ^^

OHOHOHOH. WE FOUND A TEA SHOP. Fuck. Yes.

Me being a complete twat had never realised there was a tea room above Liam's sweet shop. ¬¬ I had been looking for one everrryywhherrre and the only one that looked decent, that I'd found, was in Ware. And that's just super long. So you can imagine the excitment displayed on my face when we were having tea there. My gad.

Also, I don't really know Heather that well, but she made Eddie's day by giving him this lully note. (:

His eyes welled up I swear it.

We made a new friend. He be Luke and he's pretty cool. Huge. And looks extremely intimidating. But he's really nice.

An awesome night overall. (:

And now I have to get ready to go do a little shopping :D Happy Birthday Ed'star.

Someone like youu..

Oh hai lovely day.

:D

I'm in a good mood.

And I'm gonna' go meet Eddie now.

:)

You have to believe yourself to be happy now..

I hate that it's so cold.

And I guess it doesn't help sitting here in tiny shorts and a big t-shirt.

But really, how can the weather be so deceiving! It looks so sunny and lovely and warm. And it. Just. Isn't.

I'm looking forward to tonight. I really hope Eddie's present comes out at least half-successful!

Tomorrow shad be fun. :D

I found it so hard getting up this morning. I really don't understand how Petch and Kieran do it..

I hope when I eventually get a job (and I will), it'll be a lot easier.

Oh, Wednesday I had a minor back fall. Yesterday was good though. And today'll be even better.

Temptations beatable.

I keep getting this weird, sharp pain spazzing through my chest. It's annoying. And it hurts.

+ I really should be getting ready right now.

You can't rely on someone else to be happy.

But I will hold on hope..

I listen to good music.
It's not even the fact if I'm capable of listening to good music.
I do.
-crosses arms-
:(

And this is such a good song.

The band are amazing.

And I won't let you choke, on the noose around your neck.

In the morning, clouds will cover you..

Aha. Today failed.

It looks like the only posts I seem to be posting are one's about my plans for the next day, and then me writing about how they just didn't go according to plan.

17 soon :D 10 days to be exact.

I'm not excited as such, I just want it to hurry up! And the year after that of course. Being 18 couldn't be much further away..

The only thing I've requested is that the gays make me a cake. I don't want any presents (well, that excludes the Emarosa tickets of course), I just want a home made cake. :DD

-and alcomohol-

I need to sort things out. Starting with my head I think.

My life just seems to be a scribble at the moment. Retardedly messy.

STILL looking for a job.

And I officially despise online application forms. Do they think that the applicants are Einsteins? Or that we wanna spend an hour and a half just trying to guess what area may have vacancies? Or that we wanna spend the day just trying to work out how to get on and use the bloody thing!?

I'm not a retard; I know a fair amount about computers and all that jazz. This is just ridiculous.

I've had my morning moan.

I'm gonna' dance whilst I tidy now.

(:

In the afternoon, the sun is yours.

You are creating all the bubbles at night..

Today was disappointing. I guess. And I can't update you guys with pictures because taking pictures was literally not an option. Elena Tonra does have an amazing voice, that I can be sure of.



I do not know what music's playing. Or the girl who invited Petch. What the band sound like or what they're called. But I'm going to their gig tomorrow night. Lulwut.

I find him weirdly amazing. Yum.

Sleep now? Yes please.

I'm chasing round trying to pop them all the time.

We lived those nights..

This songs been stuck in my head allll dayyy.
Because it's maybe so good?

Te diet's started. 550 today.
If I keep this up, I'm sure I'll lose some sort of weight before Emarosa right?
Hopefully..



I cannot wait for tomorrow. Hopefully I can update you with pictures.

I feel so ill it's unreal. Like I've had a headache for like an hour now. One minute I'm hot, the next I'm freezing. Fucker.

They deserved a much bigger crowd.

Like we were dying.

<3