Living is easy with eyes closed..

Oh. Wasn't last night fun?
Awkwardness. Throwing up. Drinking more. Cheese rolls. Sitting in the corner. Singing 'I Wanna Dance With Somebody'. Knowing the dance to an unknown song. Sitting with ten year youngs. Toilets. Skankin it up. Slow dancing it down. Drinking more. Random making out. Slow dancing to a fast song. Watching the weirdest Indian dance ever. Slow dancing with an old teacher. Teaching a teacher to dance. Drinking more. Sitting on the floor. Spanish Ambassador's house. Stealing balloons from a four year old. Drinking more. Staying til the floor was empty. Getting lost. Laying in the road. Freaking out. Being followed. Crying. Smashing bottles. Losing shoes. Walking in puddles. Throwing house keys. Being shit scared. Sitting on the doorstep. Eating frozen quorn. Burning the laptop. Incapable of moving. Incapable of getting changed. Falling asleep on the kitchen floor. Sore feet. Eating a chicken sandwich. Smoking more. Sleeping properly. At last.
I enjoyed it.

Josh had sex with a jellyfish.
Believe it. Petch. She did. Kinda.
Oh god, I do love her.

loveandhugsandkissesandstuff :)
Night.

Misunderstanding all you see,
It's getting hard to be someone..

Get a taste in my mouth, as desperation takes hold..

okay, so i haven't changed much.
to be honest, i can't really change a lot.
i'm working on a banner (Y) i need james' or kieran's help for that..


ah. i really hope he doesn't find out.


i need to dye my hair again. it looks trampy. again.

i hope i can sleep away this migraine.
it's doing my head in.

i need to lose like 1000 ibs before emarosa.

please.

Love will tear us apart, again.

And alright let's go outside..

skype is fun. :DD
i've started changing things on here. simply through boredom which has now lead to an obsession.
i want a whole load more pictures, so if you gots some sites and such.. comment. please. i will appreciate it :)
i also want to make a headline banner thing.
again, need advice and tips and shtuf.
i may even switch to a different blog site.
not now i don't think. it's 4 in the morning.
not unless i find it absolutely impossible to sleep. but even in that case, i'll force myself to.
so no, not tonight. maybe tomorrow if i'm not completely ker-nackered when i get in.
i also want to start crediting the pictures i steal from personal blogs and sites and such, which i use for my own blogs. the photographer atleast deserves that.


gah.
i need to see the doctor again. exciting. yeah.
i think i'll try and get some sleep now.

oh, btw..

he's doing it right.

todd norbury photography.

And rise, rise, rise to the meaning of life.

I'm trying, but we're all falling out,

I want to go back to old times.

I need a fix 'cause I'm going down..

i cant be bothered to do anything today.
i just want to sit here and watch films and smoke and be warm and alone and listen to music with my eyes shut for hours.

but i can't,
i have to get out and socialise today. i have to enquire about available jobs.
i have to wait for the 217 for ages. i have to do that long walk to kieran's house.

oh god i desperately need a job.
i can't sit here and wait for it to knock on my door and say 'oh hey, want a job?'.
i have to look. again.
and again, nowhere will have any spaces for a rundown teenager looking for money.
fuck.


ah. i'm doing my own head in. i'm so fucking unmotivated and ridiculously lazy.
and yet i still want so much. i still want to do so much.
i'm just a fucking mess.
a stupid joke which no one finds funny anymore.
well done shaunie.
let down everyone all over again.
this is really you going far..


i really want an amazing camera for my birthday.
i won't.
but i can wan't.

I wanna be a kid again.

Back to the bits that I left uptown.

This stupid feeling has swept over me again.
I hope it'll only last a few more hours. Like, maybe I'll wake up and feel okay,
feel like I have been feeling for the past few weeks.



Stupid little things seem to be pulling my smile down at the corners every time.
And I can't keep taking it out on the nearest person.








Come on new day. Make me feel like you.

This room is getting colder and I know..

It's really cold.
And I really wanna' know what's going on with everyone recently.
I'm all like 'wtf o.O'
It's like everything's flipped upside down or something.
Iuno. I'm just observing in this case.

I could really do with a hug.
A big one that lasts for agesss.

I stalked a guy in Sainsbury's today ><
I couldn't help myself.
I was curious. :D

Lol at my grandad watching Loose Women xD

Just passing time so,
Time to go :)
And enjoy some nommy wine :D

It's only once you've lost everything, you are free to do anything.

<3

Drag my teeth across your chest..

Happy Valentines day. (:
Even though I don't particularly like the idea of 'Valentines Day', you guys might.
I don't like the idea that it's a day when you show your partner - or whoever - how much you 'love' them. Shouldn't that be like an everyday thing? I dunno. Maybe I'll get it soon..

So I'm bored.
And the gays are STILL in bed.
I really don't get that.

Billy introduced this song to me ^
And I like it quite a bit.
(:

I get my new boots tomorrow :D
And maybe a new jacket?
I might be pushing my luck with that one.
But still, the boots :)
I think they're nommy.

The gig should be fun too.
I'm still fascinated with the amount of passion Eddie seems to put into playing drums.

I really need to buy 500 days of summer.
It's so good.
And I'm no longer taking sides.
She's a bitch.
But it happens right? He deserved her to feel the same,
but things don't always go according to plan I spose.
And what Billy said was right I guess: usually, almost always, it's the girl who ends up heartbroken and caught up on a guy who doesn't really give a shit, so it was nice to see it happen the other way round.
Overall it's an amazing film. (recommendation here :)
Joseph Gordan-Levitt's all nommy, and Zooey Deschanel is extremely pretty.
I would.
With both.

Well, I'm gonna' go wake the faggot's up.
This can't be healthy.

Bai.

To taste your beating heart.

<3

You're at your best..

Isn't Josh just..oh so lovely?
I would.
I definitely would.

Today was pretty good.
We saw Kathryn Prescott from Skins. She's unrealistically pretty.
And that guy from the IT Crowd....the pervert? He puts rohypnol in some girls drink to try and rape her? But he ends up drinking it? I don't know his name. Or him for that matter. He was more for Petchy ^^

"I'm so mature. I have nom nom nom tattooed on me. That must mean I'm cool now.." L.O.L
Stupid people these days eh?

I have an almighty headache.
>:/

Why am I so tired?!?
I think I'm going to go bed soon.

Stupid stomach cramps ¬¬
Fuck you nature.

When I'm making, making baby steps..

<3

But I trip up and then I lose..

Why can I not just see the positive side of things?
I really, really want to.
And, admittedly, lately I have had some sort of a positive attitude.
But it has to slowly creep up just to show face.
Make you feel shit all over again. And stupid.

And I hate looking like a fool.

<3

I HAVE NO TIME GIRL, TO PLAY THIS GAME WITH YOU..

Oh my. Fucking god.
Why does his voice have to be so god damn good?
Can we have sex, please?

I really want a tea.
But that means getting up, going downstairs, waiting for the kettle to boil, make it and then come back up. And I'm extremely comfy. I'll pass THIS time.

I'm looking forward to Saturday (:
Fucking sucks about Friday.
Stupid mutly.
STOP CHEWING LIGHT BULBS AND LET ME HAVE A LIFE.

My feet and back hurt real bad :(
I think I'm going to finish my room tomorrow, and then not leave it..
I honestly do not think I have ever been this lazy.
Who goes to someones house just to sleep?!?
-A few do- But that is not the point! I should stop.

Jonny Craig.
Well I came.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OMNOMOMNOMOMNOMOMNOM.
Oh up in smoke we go.
Oh up in smoke we go.
Oh up in smoke.

This month's gone be a good one.
(:

Sleep's being a dick.
I'm so tired and yet I can't fall unconscious.
TWAT.

Oh. Foul language is becoming a terrible habit.

I'm going to finish drooling over him,
and try and get some sleep now.

I HAVE A QUEEN. WHY WOULD I SETTLE FOR A FUCKING MAID?

<3