Don't feed me violins..

I got a few nice bits today. I forgot how expensive clothes are.
I got a vintage dress, high waisted shorts and two t-shirts. Plus a holiday. So I'm pretty happy.

I really want to go to Rome. Or Venice. Or Paris.
Fiji's out the window. £2k for a ticket. Nice.
New Zealand's still an option; it's chances are unbelievably low, but it's still up there. Thankfully.

I can't wait to be home already! And I have no obvious reason as to why.
I want Eddie's gig to be tonight. Or my alcohol fuelled night to be tonight. I want to be with my bloody friends.

I've been feeling sick since I woke up.
And the feeling just came back.
Oh wow.

Just run with me through roads of speeding cars.

You know that I could use somebody..

Last night was so cool like. And that be the cake I made Eddie. Now you get what I mean by it not turning out quite the way I wanted it to. Eddie seemed to like it, and that was all I really wanted. Oh, also, didn't taste as good as I'd hoped it to! But again, everyone ate it, out of politeness I think, but still, they ate it.

The random gig we ended up at was pretty cool too. I thought it'd be a bit boring, but it wasn't. Petch and me got Eddie up dancing, then Billy, James and Kieran joined in with the fun. So all in all, that was a good highlight of the night. OH. And their cover songs were pretty good too. A bit wedding singer like, or in the words of the boys 'a run down band trying to reclaim their youth', but they were enjoyable and kept us happy :D. And kept us screaming Kings Of Leon lyrics at eachother. ^^

OHOHOHOH. WE FOUND A TEA SHOP. Fuck. Yes.

Me being a complete twat had never realised there was a tea room above Liam's sweet shop. ¬¬ I had been looking for one everrryywhherrre and the only one that looked decent, that I'd found, was in Ware. And that's just super long. So you can imagine the excitment displayed on my face when we were having tea there. My gad.

Also, I don't really know Heather that well, but she made Eddie's day by giving him this lully note. (:

His eyes welled up I swear it.

We made a new friend. He be Luke and he's pretty cool. Huge. And looks extremely intimidating. But he's really nice.

An awesome night overall. (:

And now I have to get ready to go do a little shopping :D Happy Birthday Ed'star.

Someone like youu..

Oh hai lovely day.

:D

I'm in a good mood.

And I'm gonna' go meet Eddie now.

:)

You have to believe yourself to be happy now..

I hate that it's so cold.

And I guess it doesn't help sitting here in tiny shorts and a big t-shirt.

But really, how can the weather be so deceiving! It looks so sunny and lovely and warm. And it. Just. Isn't.

I'm looking forward to tonight. I really hope Eddie's present comes out at least half-successful!

Tomorrow shad be fun. :D

I found it so hard getting up this morning. I really don't understand how Petch and Kieran do it..

I hope when I eventually get a job (and I will), it'll be a lot easier.

Oh, Wednesday I had a minor back fall. Yesterday was good though. And today'll be even better.

Temptations beatable.

I keep getting this weird, sharp pain spazzing through my chest. It's annoying. And it hurts.

+ I really should be getting ready right now.

You can't rely on someone else to be happy.

But I will hold on hope..

I listen to good music.
It's not even the fact if I'm capable of listening to good music.
I do.
-crosses arms-
:(

And this is such a good song.

The band are amazing.

And I won't let you choke, on the noose around your neck.

In the morning, clouds will cover you..

Aha. Today failed.

It looks like the only posts I seem to be posting are one's about my plans for the next day, and then me writing about how they just didn't go according to plan.

17 soon :D 10 days to be exact.

I'm not excited as such, I just want it to hurry up! And the year after that of course. Being 18 couldn't be much further away..

The only thing I've requested is that the gays make me a cake. I don't want any presents (well, that excludes the Emarosa tickets of course), I just want a home made cake. :DD

-and alcomohol-

I need to sort things out. Starting with my head I think.

My life just seems to be a scribble at the moment. Retardedly messy.

STILL looking for a job.

And I officially despise online application forms. Do they think that the applicants are Einsteins? Or that we wanna spend an hour and a half just trying to guess what area may have vacancies? Or that we wanna spend the day just trying to work out how to get on and use the bloody thing!?

I'm not a retard; I know a fair amount about computers and all that jazz. This is just ridiculous.

I've had my morning moan.

I'm gonna' dance whilst I tidy now.

(:

In the afternoon, the sun is yours.

You are creating all the bubbles at night..

Today was disappointing. I guess. And I can't update you guys with pictures because taking pictures was literally not an option. Elena Tonra does have an amazing voice, that I can be sure of.



I do not know what music's playing. Or the girl who invited Petch. What the band sound like or what they're called. But I'm going to their gig tomorrow night. Lulwut.

I find him weirdly amazing. Yum.

Sleep now? Yes please.

I'm chasing round trying to pop them all the time.

We lived those nights..

This songs been stuck in my head allll dayyy.
Because it's maybe so good?

Te diet's started. 550 today.
If I keep this up, I'm sure I'll lose some sort of weight before Emarosa right?
Hopefully..



I cannot wait for tomorrow. Hopefully I can update you with pictures.

I feel so ill it's unreal. Like I've had a headache for like an hour now. One minute I'm hot, the next I'm freezing. Fucker.

They deserved a much bigger crowd.

Like we were dying.

<3